hi my name is Rachel. one day i will have a proper website but for now i have a carrd.
i know that tone, intention, & heart can often be lost in text-based communication, especially in the soulless corporate hellscape of social media as it exists in its current form. recently i have decided i very much want to occupy an intersection of Deranged Shitposting and Earnest Sincere. tysm for supporting me on my journey... <3
if u need a visual guide to help you understand how to parse ur interactions with me, here is a photo taken of me when i was like 17 years old in 2009 or something, posting on Facebook Dot Com:
lol i was having so much Fun. i have been in Therapy a long time & i talk to my therapist a lot about healing my Inner Child. when i was a lil kid i had sooooo much fun posting & talking to ppl on the Internet. so i think it's important for me to make a conscious effort to move past the Detached Irony that has been the norm in certain online societies for the past decade or so.
i asked my boyfriend what he thought my power would be if i was an X-Mens & he said, "Rachel u would have the power to be able to consume lethal amounts of Cringe that would kill a normal human."
when he told me this at first i was Offended. but the more i think about the more it makes me feel Powerful. i feel that people online, so many people (including me) interact with others in this Digital Landscape trying to navigate a deep-seated Fear of being Perceived As Cringe or Lame... but that's not fun!!! we should be having fun!!!! things are really scary Outside. theres War
so yes i think it is a very Meaningful & Important thing, to own ones Cringe. i think it is very powerful, when one is just trying to Seek Meaning, or express Thoughtfeelings, or Share Genuine Human Connection & then some jaded freak comes in like "WOW!!!!! U ARE BEING SO CRINGE RN.... #CALLTHEPOLICE"
like bictch.... fuck u!!! i am not """BEING""" cringe. i AM cringe. IM NOT STUCK IN HERE W/ U, UR STUCK IN HERE W/ ME!!!!! hehehehe *flips my hair in a way that's playful & sassy*
anyway.... i invite u to join me on my journey to be playful & whimsical & have fun on the Internet \(^-^)/ teh yay!!!!!!!!!!!111